Isn't it funny when people say "Don't do that. Stop that. It's bad for you." when they discover that you intentionally purge, self-harm, or whatnot. It's like, wow. I didn't know that. Thank you. You have cured me forever.
Instead, why don't they say, "If ever you have problems, you can always talk to me. I can't really say I understand everything you're going through and that I agree with what you do to yourself because I really don't but know that I am always here for you. That's what being friends are for, right? We're gonna get through this together."
It's more comforting and it cheers us troubled ones up. Even for just the tiniest bit. Because it lets us know that someone actually cares. Because there have been one too many circumstances where people just brush it off and act like it's nothing and that is just a slap in the face.
Monday, October 7, 2013
I will be alright. Hopefully.
I don't know what to say.
Ever felt so mad at something but have no one to blame but yourself? But it's not really your fault too so you become extremely frustrated and upset and just end up crying.
I've always believed that people can do whatever they wanted but in return, deal with the consequences as well. That trip was supposed to be the highlight of this year. I've always pictured it to be one of the best things to ever have experienced. I left in the midst of the most crucial part of the semester though I did make sure to finish everything before leaving. All the requirements and papers were done. I had so much confidence. I was naive and I was wrong.
I left sacrificing a presentation and a quiz. Little did I know how much that weighed on my grades. Now, I'm not really one to worship grades because those are really just numbers and don't really define you as a whole. I even used to shamelessly fail classes. However, I really did go through a transition stage when I failed some classes in my first years of college and had to retake classes. It hit me hard. I realized that even though grades aren't important as a person, it IS very important if I want a decent enough future with the kind of lifestyle I'm living.
I broke down in class today. First time I ever cried for a grade. My grade went from a 94 to an 86 in a span of days. I don't really know whether to accept it or not. I don't really have a choice. It's just that, I REALLY REALLY DID DO MY BEST AT EVERYTHING BEFORE I LEFT. I kept revising and editing until I was pleased with my work and was still able to submit everything before the deadline. Sometimes even on the same day that the task was given. I thought I was at the height of my motivation.
The sudden flow of extra work happened during my trip. I missed everything. Upon return, I was rushing because I had much to do. It was too much and too sudden to process, I guess. I was crap. I almost did nothing right when I came back. Even right now, I'm still trying to let it sink in that that heaven of a vacation is over. That I still have another week of work as a student before the semestral break called the exam week. But to make it short, I failed myself.
That trip. That trip that was supposed to be nothing but a cause of happiness and celebration has caused me my grade. Sometimes I wish I didn't go. If I only knew how much that trip would cause my grade, I wouldn't have went in the first place. Even if it was my grandmother and I's birthday. But I didn't know and I went. So now I'm in a dilemma.
Wow. Days after my special day, adulthood has already smacked me in the shin.
Ever felt so mad at something but have no one to blame but yourself? But it's not really your fault too so you become extremely frustrated and upset and just end up crying.
I've always believed that people can do whatever they wanted but in return, deal with the consequences as well. That trip was supposed to be the highlight of this year. I've always pictured it to be one of the best things to ever have experienced. I left in the midst of the most crucial part of the semester though I did make sure to finish everything before leaving. All the requirements and papers were done. I had so much confidence. I was naive and I was wrong.
I left sacrificing a presentation and a quiz. Little did I know how much that weighed on my grades. Now, I'm not really one to worship grades because those are really just numbers and don't really define you as a whole. I even used to shamelessly fail classes. However, I really did go through a transition stage when I failed some classes in my first years of college and had to retake classes. It hit me hard. I realized that even though grades aren't important as a person, it IS very important if I want a decent enough future with the kind of lifestyle I'm living.
I broke down in class today. First time I ever cried for a grade. My grade went from a 94 to an 86 in a span of days. I don't really know whether to accept it or not. I don't really have a choice. It's just that, I REALLY REALLY DID DO MY BEST AT EVERYTHING BEFORE I LEFT. I kept revising and editing until I was pleased with my work and was still able to submit everything before the deadline. Sometimes even on the same day that the task was given. I thought I was at the height of my motivation.
The sudden flow of extra work happened during my trip. I missed everything. Upon return, I was rushing because I had much to do. It was too much and too sudden to process, I guess. I was crap. I almost did nothing right when I came back. Even right now, I'm still trying to let it sink in that that heaven of a vacation is over. That I still have another week of work as a student before the semestral break called the exam week. But to make it short, I failed myself.
That trip. That trip that was supposed to be nothing but a cause of happiness and celebration has caused me my grade. Sometimes I wish I didn't go. If I only knew how much that trip would cause my grade, I wouldn't have went in the first place. Even if it was my grandmother and I's birthday. But I didn't know and I went. So now I'm in a dilemma.
Wow. Days after my special day, adulthood has already smacked me in the shin.
Saturday, September 14, 2013
a 'lil poem
how can a person be so insecure towards others
but act infinitely superior with friends?
annoying.
but act infinitely superior with friends?
annoying.
Monday, September 9, 2013
NEW MUSIC FIND (September 09, 2013)
All the colours- Shame
LINK:
Made me bob my head and smile in the midst of being irked. I can already picture this adorable pop rock song being part of my everyday playlist. ;)
Tuesday, September 3, 2013
September 2013
OkOk. So I've already made mention my 18th birthday that's going to happen this month but like, there are a whole lot more events I shall be attending to and It's already stressing me out just thinking about it.
This first week, I've already accomplished 3 out of my 5 reports while procrastinating for another one the next week, organized a surprise party for two of my close friends (along with manually making decorations and designing and gathering birthday cards with messages from their other friends and compiling documentations of said event on a video and looking for gifts and cakes), attended make up classes, watched a ballet play, watched indie films with my parents, bought a few travel items for my trip to Singapore on the last week of September, booked flights and hotel accommodations and other stuff to Singapore for my aunts who are planning a surprise for my grandmother's birthday also on the last week of September (lol. actually my nana and I have the same birthdays.), went to a theme park with friends, and all while attending regular classes and doing homework and studying for tests (research papers and readings).
For the second week, I'll be having my 4th reporting, procrastinating to catch the submission of a written output for my 5th reporting on the first week of October, (tentative) going to celebrate my cousin's birthday, attend regular and make up classes, submit paperworks on deadline, attending meetings, researching for possible subjects and location for my sociology class, attending my course's general assembly, and attending a conference about the current state of south asia (wow. this seems a lot more chill than I expected it to be). OH, AND I JUST MIGHT GET A REALLY REALLY SOFT PERM TOO (god forbid that they also force me into cutting my mermaid locks. >:(<).
For the third week, THIS IS THE CHILL WEEK. This is probably the week where I make last minute preparations for my trip to Singapore on the 26th. This is probably also going to be the week wherein the documentation for my literature class presentation will be done. Oh, and finishing of my part for the paper in my sociology class. Plus, studying.
For the fourth week, I'll probably brush off the first half of the week aside from doing homework and studying for quizzes. September 25th shall be a busy day. When I get home from class, I'll be charging all the gadgets I'm bringing. I'll also be making check lists on what to bring while simultaneously packing for the next day. This is also the day where I exchange all my savings for this trip to Singaporean Dollar. I mean, it isn't much but I worked hard for it. I probably won't get to sleep too due to the excitement and the fact that our flight the next day is scheduled in an ungodly hour where the sun hasn't even risen yet. I'll probably wake up on the 26th (or I just might not sleep anymore and postpone the sleeping while waiting for the flight) at around 1:30am and shower (fak. we really need to get the heater fixed before this day) and re-check my stuff before leaving. Breakfast will be on the plane, I assume. BUT I WILL NOT ALLOW THE ABSENCE OF CAFFEINE. I'll probably be on Regina George mode since my body requires adequate food and sleep to be decent...enough. I hope I enjoy the food there. SINGAPORE, HERE I COME. The downside of this day is that NOTHING IS SCHEDULED. Like, we only settle into the hotel rooms and that's it. This is grandma's surprise day though so I'm still hoping for something exciting to come up. If not, I'll probably just enjoy the hotel's amenities or take a short stroll outside. September 27th, THE FUN BEGINS. Universal Studios!!! I hope I don't act like a wimp and ride the ACTUAL fun rides. I can sense something that'll cause a bit of a bummer though. Thing is, I'm the only "kid" in this trip so I can't really force them to ride with me. Sigh. Oh well. September 28, we're scheduled to go to the guinness world record largest Ocean Park in the morning then transfer hotels afterwards. September 29. UGH. I'm legal now. FAK. jks. Celebratory day full of shopping and eating (We're going to a buffet, I believe). HOORAY. September 30. I believe this is the trip to Legoland? Not sure about all the details of the trip but yeah. HOORAY FOR GOING TO MALAYSIA. October 1. GOODBYE SINGAPORE. BACK TO THE REALITY OF MY DREADFUL COLLEGE LIFE. Last minute shopping though. Huehuehue.
This first week, I've already accomplished 3 out of my 5 reports while procrastinating for another one the next week, organized a surprise party for two of my close friends (along with manually making decorations and designing and gathering birthday cards with messages from their other friends and compiling documentations of said event on a video and looking for gifts and cakes), attended make up classes, watched a ballet play, watched indie films with my parents, bought a few travel items for my trip to Singapore on the last week of September, booked flights and hotel accommodations and other stuff to Singapore for my aunts who are planning a surprise for my grandmother's birthday also on the last week of September (lol. actually my nana and I have the same birthdays.), went to a theme park with friends, and all while attending regular classes and doing homework and studying for tests (research papers and readings).
For the second week, I'll be having my 4th reporting, procrastinating to catch the submission of a written output for my 5th reporting on the first week of October, (tentative) going to celebrate my cousin's birthday, attend regular and make up classes, submit paperworks on deadline, attending meetings, researching for possible subjects and location for my sociology class, attending my course's general assembly, and attending a conference about the current state of south asia (wow. this seems a lot more chill than I expected it to be). OH, AND I JUST MIGHT GET A REALLY REALLY SOFT PERM TOO (god forbid that they also force me into cutting my mermaid locks. >:(<).
For the third week, THIS IS THE CHILL WEEK. This is probably the week where I make last minute preparations for my trip to Singapore on the 26th. This is probably also going to be the week wherein the documentation for my literature class presentation will be done. Oh, and finishing of my part for the paper in my sociology class. Plus, studying.
For the fourth week, I'll probably brush off the first half of the week aside from doing homework and studying for quizzes. September 25th shall be a busy day. When I get home from class, I'll be charging all the gadgets I'm bringing. I'll also be making check lists on what to bring while simultaneously packing for the next day. This is also the day where I exchange all my savings for this trip to Singaporean Dollar. I mean, it isn't much but I worked hard for it. I probably won't get to sleep too due to the excitement and the fact that our flight the next day is scheduled in an ungodly hour where the sun hasn't even risen yet. I'll probably wake up on the 26th (or I just might not sleep anymore and postpone the sleeping while waiting for the flight) at around 1:30am and shower (fak. we really need to get the heater fixed before this day) and re-check my stuff before leaving. Breakfast will be on the plane, I assume. BUT I WILL NOT ALLOW THE ABSENCE OF CAFFEINE. I'll probably be on Regina George mode since my body requires adequate food and sleep to be decent...enough. I hope I enjoy the food there. SINGAPORE, HERE I COME. The downside of this day is that NOTHING IS SCHEDULED. Like, we only settle into the hotel rooms and that's it. This is grandma's surprise day though so I'm still hoping for something exciting to come up. If not, I'll probably just enjoy the hotel's amenities or take a short stroll outside. September 27th, THE FUN BEGINS. Universal Studios!!! I hope I don't act like a wimp and ride the ACTUAL fun rides. I can sense something that'll cause a bit of a bummer though. Thing is, I'm the only "kid" in this trip so I can't really force them to ride with me. Sigh. Oh well. September 28, we're scheduled to go to the guinness world record largest Ocean Park in the morning then transfer hotels afterwards. September 29. UGH. I'm legal now. FAK. jks. Celebratory day full of shopping and eating (We're going to a buffet, I believe). HOORAY. September 30. I believe this is the trip to Legoland? Not sure about all the details of the trip but yeah. HOORAY FOR GOING TO MALAYSIA. October 1. GOODBYE SINGAPORE. BACK TO THE REALITY OF MY DREADFUL COLLEGE LIFE. Last minute shopping though. Huehuehue.
Saturday, August 31, 2013
Wishlist.
Haha. Turning 18 on September 29. I don't know if it's similar with others, but a girl's 18th birthday is kind of a big deal here. Kind of like the Quinceanera of the Spanish and the Sweet Sixteen of the Americans. :) It's the mark of being a woman (Adulthood scares the hell outta me). It's the legal age to drive, drink, employment, and whatnot. Sooner or later, I'll probably start paying taxes and move out of the house. Gahh. This is probably why they shower you with gifts at this time. To comfort you on the start of a dreadful life. X) Jks. Anyway, I've listed a couple of things below if you guys are wondering what I'd like to receive. Haha. I know. This is totes making me seem self-absorbed. Buuut, in my defense, this will also serve as my future reference of things to buy for myself. And I don't really need gifts. Purely being present is fine with me. :)
CLOTHING:
1) Boyfriend/Distressed Jeans
2) Knit cardigans
3) Flower crowns
4) Doc Martens
5) Creepers
6) Oversized round sunglasses (Thin frames)
MAKEUP:
1) Hourglass Immaculate Liquid Powder Foundation Mattifying Oil Free
2) Urban Decay Naked Skin Beauty Balm Broad Spectrum SPF 20
3) Urban Decay All Nighter Long-lasting setting spray
4) Urban Decay Naked Palette
5) Bobbi Brown Corrector
6) Plum/Black/Nude Brown Lipstick (MUST BE MATTE.)
7) NARS Blush (WARM AND GOLD COLORS ONLY. NO PINKS.)
8) Bronzer (Medium to Deep color range.)
9) Anastasia Brow Wiz
RANDOM:
1) Polaroid
2) Vintage Bike
3) XBOX + Kinect
4) Clarisonic Mia2 Sonic Cleansing Brush
5) Real Techniques Brushes
6) T3 Single Pass Whirl (or #7)
7) Hot tools deep waver
Tuesday, July 23, 2013
A tribute.
07/23/2013.
The very first International My Chemical Romance day since they disbanded. I don't really know how to feel about that. I really want to celebrate since they're my absolute favorite band but at the same time, I am completely aware they're not a unit anymore. It's tough.
But that's why I am a Killjoy. Life is tough but I will keep fighting. The band taught me that.
Actually, they have taught me many things. I am who I am today because of them. Their music is what keeps me going. To some, it might be too loud or rowdy or whatever but TO ME, it is everything. The message in each of their songs just shouts, "BE BRAVE."
My Chemical Romance is so much more than just a band. It is a band that saves lives. They are my inspiration, my teacher, my motivator. My Chemical Romance is me. I identify with each and every member of the community. We are all just one big family.
When I see the fandom, I see beauty. Sure, we are scarred and broken people. Because it's okay to be messed up. And we sure are proud of it. Proud of ourselves for staying strong and still be running. Proud of the difference that the band has made. Proud of all the lives that it has changed for the better.
So, I guess I can consider this a happy day. For it is the day dedicated to the best band ever. This is the day that I can finally accept the statement, "Don't be sad that it's over, be glad that it happened."
The very first International My Chemical Romance day since they disbanded. I don't really know how to feel about that. I really want to celebrate since they're my absolute favorite band but at the same time, I am completely aware they're not a unit anymore. It's tough.
But that's why I am a Killjoy. Life is tough but I will keep fighting. The band taught me that.
Actually, they have taught me many things. I am who I am today because of them. Their music is what keeps me going. To some, it might be too loud or rowdy or whatever but TO ME, it is everything. The message in each of their songs just shouts, "BE BRAVE."
My Chemical Romance is so much more than just a band. It is a band that saves lives. They are my inspiration, my teacher, my motivator. My Chemical Romance is me. I identify with each and every member of the community. We are all just one big family.
When I see the fandom, I see beauty. Sure, we are scarred and broken people. Because it's okay to be messed up. And we sure are proud of it. Proud of ourselves for staying strong and still be running. Proud of the difference that the band has made. Proud of all the lives that it has changed for the better.
So, I guess I can consider this a happy day. For it is the day dedicated to the best band ever. This is the day that I can finally accept the statement, "Don't be sad that it's over, be glad that it happened."
Friday, July 12, 2013
New Music Find (July 12, 2013)
Hand in mine- Jonathan Rado
LINK:
Best folk indie I've discovered in a while. :)
Friday, June 28, 2013
New Music Find (June 28, 2013)
Dead Hearts- Stars
LINK:
So many feels for this song. The world is a scary place to live in. Yet we still choose to stay.
Sunday, June 23, 2013
New Music Find (June 23, 2013)
See The Light- Gareth Johnson
LINK:
I saw this in an ad to one of Uniqlo's latest lines. I kinda feel like it's one of those modern day Barbie songs. :) Enjoy!
Saturday, June 1, 2013
Happens Too Often
HOW I LOOK LIKE WITH MAKEUP:
HOW PEOPLE THINK I LOOK LIKE WITHOUT MAKEUP:
HOW I ACTUALLY LOOK LIKE WITHOUT MAKEUP:
Thursday, May 30, 2013
Getting things straight.
I REALLY LIKE MAKEUP. I REALLY REALLY REALLY DO.
Don't call me fake.
Wearing makeup is not equal to lack of confidence.
Wearing makeup does not mean I'm ashamed of my flaws.
Wearing makeup is not equal to being plastic.
Wearing makeup does not mean I'm trying to hide.
I don't wear makeup to impress.
I am confident even without it.
I don't care what others have to say.
I care what I see myself as.
I do it for me.
Makeup is my biggest hobby.
It is a means of recreation.
It's as good as reading a book or playing a sport.
I actually make time to practice.
To me, it is very therapeutic.
I guess it's because I dislike being labelled.
With makeup, I can make myself almost turn into another person.
I get bored easily.
Makeup enables me to change the way I look.
It is fun.
I can become whatever or whomever I want to be.
I can imitate or create.
There is absolutely no limits.
Makeup isn't something to be viewed negatively.
Makeup is a form of art.
Wednesday, May 29, 2013
New Music Find (May 30, 2013)
Blueprint- Eden Mulholland
LINK:
IDK about you guys but it was raining when I first listened to this & I just felt really good. :)
Monday, May 27, 2013
New Music Find (May 27, 2013)
Meow- Anamanaguchi
LINK:
For all the cat lovers out there. LOL. This also reminds me of Pokemon.
Saturday, May 25, 2013
New Music Find (May 25, 2013)
Isn't That Something- Ray Toro
LINK:
OKAY. I indicated in one of my posts before that my favorite band is My Chemical Romance. Ever since the breakup, I was quite bitter about it until about less than an hour ago when I discovered RAY TORO, the lead guitarist of the band and back-up vocals, MADE A SONG. Best thing that has happened since that cursed day. It's not your typical rock song. It is upbeat and his voice very different from the ones usually heard nowadays. IT IS SERIOUSLY GOOD. not just saying that 'cause I'm biased. I SPEAK THE TRUTH.
Friday, May 24, 2013
Bronzed Bombshell
LOL. Jk. I put on makeup today to see if it was possible to hide the scars from a recent accident. IT WAS. yay.
So I took a picture out of appreciation of the look I created then realized...
Damn I got really tanned this summer. An NC42 was a bit dark on me before but I think it's going to be a perfect shade now.
Excuse the retarded picture. I was trying to pull off sexy but got piranha derp instead. Haha. Oh well.
So I took a picture out of appreciation of the look I created then realized...
Damn I got really tanned this summer. An NC42 was a bit dark on me before but I think it's going to be a perfect shade now.
Excuse the retarded picture. I was trying to pull off sexy but got piranha derp instead. Haha. Oh well.
Thursday, May 23, 2013
Sigh
I was gonna make a makeup-related post but then I fucked up my face pretty bad last night as I fell down the stairs face first.
Tuesday, May 21, 2013
New Playlist (May 21, 2013)
Weee. I have a very interesting song line-up. And yes, I got all these songs by going on a sidebar adventure on YouTube. mehehehe. >:)<
I personally believe it's an awesome playlist since it's comprised of indie songs. Some just instrumental and others not. The cool thing though is that it starts from a super mellow vibe and eventually ends with a super energetic party song. At least that's what I think.
Here's the list:
1) Arctics- Jubilants
2) Paper Birds- Parachutes
3) Eyes Closed- The Narrative
4) Take Me Somewhere Nice- Mogwai
5) I'd Write You A Song- Very Truly Yours
6) We Are In Love- Cider Sky
7) Dirty Dreams- Work Drugs
8) We Could Be Amazing- Andy Grammer
9) Iron Doors- The Lighthouse and the Whaler
10) Trial and Error- Snowmine
11) All Those Friendly People- Funeral Suits
12) Deadbeat Summer- Neon Indian
13) Better Times- Beach House
14) A Walk- Tycho
15) Near To You- A Fine Frenzy
16) Maliblue- Darius
17) Copper Down- The Boy Who Trapped The Sun
18) The Earth Plates Are Shifting- Young Empires
19) Terrible Love- Birdy
20) Wild Child- Wekeed
21) Your Girl- Tourist
22) Stay- Henry Krinkle
That's it. Enjoy! :D
Monday, May 20, 2013
THINGS THAT MADE ME HAPPY TODAY
1) My guitar lesson. I learned how to do the intro to more than words within minutes. (Although I haven't mastered it yet)
2) Me agreeing to participate in a guitar recital in August. (Even though I really am still noobish at playing the guitar. YAY TO TRYING NEW THINGS!!)
3) Having my favorite soup for dinner. (Food is always the way to my heart <3)
4) THIS CONVERSATION:
Dad: "Which room are you sleeping in tonight?"
Me: "Why?"
Dad: "Go sleep with me and mom tonight."
(YAY FOR CUDDLING UP WITH MY PARENTS TONIGHT. :D)
2) Me agreeing to participate in a guitar recital in August. (Even though I really am still noobish at playing the guitar. YAY TO TRYING NEW THINGS!!)
3) Having my favorite soup for dinner. (Food is always the way to my heart <3)
4) THIS CONVERSATION:
Dad: "Which room are you sleeping in tonight?"
Me: "Why?"
Dad: "Go sleep with me and mom tonight."
(YAY FOR CUDDLING UP WITH MY PARENTS TONIGHT. :D)
Saturday, May 18, 2013
New Music Find (May 19, 2013)
Holiday- Electric Guest
LINK:
https://soundcloud.com/electricguest/holiday
Thursday, May 16, 2013
New Music Find (May 17, 2013)
Smallpool- Dreaming
LINK:
https://soundcloud.com/smallpools/smallpools-dreaming
Review:
I believe this is their debut song. It's extremely upbeat and will instantly put you in good vibes. Although it is categorized as indie pop, I think it's more between the pop to punk rock type. :))
New Music Find (May 16, 2013)
The Dodos- Confidence
LINK:
https://soundcloud.com/polyvinyl-records/the-dodos-confidence
Wednesday, May 15, 2013
New Music Find (May 15, 2013)
1)Crystal Fighters- LA Calling
LINK:
https://soundcloud.com/crystalfighters/la-calling
2) MØ- Waste of time
LINK:
https://soundcloud.com/muurilo-1/m-waste-of-time-2
Grand entrance to the world of the Drama Queen
Greetings, vulnerable species!
I, Sensen Cortez, will attempt to make a self-introduction. Kindly bear with me.
A Fusion between this lovely couple:
Creates this:
NOW. My full name is Seleena Viktoria S. Cortez and was born on September 29, 1995. You do the math. Currently, I am studying at the University of Santo Tomas majoring in Asian Studies. I chose the course because of my undying interest in the diversity of the continent. I hope to make it big one day although I am not entirely sure how yet.
My interests/hobbies include:
1) Concerts in the shower
2) Experimenting with makeup
3) Letting my mind wander off
and so on...
Some of my favorite things:
1) Band: My Chemical Romance
2) Food: Spaghetti
3) Idol: Amy Lee
What this blog is about:
1) The fight against insecurities
2) Street Fashion
3) Music Finds
4) AND MY OWN MELODRAMATIC THOUGHTS.
THE END.
Thursday, May 9, 2013
Reach for the stars.
Are you tall?
I have been watching videos and reading posts all day of people who talk about their height. I guess this post will now officially become one of those.
Now let me just make this clear. When I say, tall, I don't mean 5'7".
I mean:
People like myself would fall into that category.
To start off, I'd begin this discussion by stating some pro's of being a tall woman.
1) You can reach things easily...whether it's under or over something. You're limbs, woman. USE IT.
2) It's relatively easy to hide your weight/fats. There are A LOT of places in your body that it distributes to.
3) You're not part of the crowd. You're above it. You effortlessly stand out. You're unique.
4) You have more job opportunities. There are occupations that cater specifically to your height. Like modeling and some sports. HECK, you can even get offered scholarships by just being in that height.
5) You're naturally perceived to be more attractive. Because. Society. That's why.
And now, for the awaited part. The negative aspect of being tall.
1) First and foremost is the most obvious. Hitting your head twice as much. You're practically used to the pain by now. Might as well call it an iron skull.
2) You cannot fit into tiny spaces. The seats in public transportation, the backseat of the car, you name it. And in a situation wherein you just HAVE to, you create a brand new yoga move just to fit in that tiny little space. Oh, and did I mention that you have to hold that position for the rest of the trip? Most people wouldn't understand the pain that can cause.
3) Clothing. Probably 99% of stores don't have your size. Whether it be a dress, a shirt, some pants, and of course shoes. While some people consider the item a dress, you see it as a shirt. Or if not, it barely covers you're bottom so you're not gonna buy it anyway. Pants are the absolute worst. You find one that fits? Too short. You find one that's long enough? Too loose. Face it. You're never gonna win. Shorts are easier to find. HOWEVER, people are going to judge you for wearing shorts. Why? Because there's always gonna be too much leg exposure. NO PEOPLE. My shorts aren't that short. My legs are just that long. Shoes. You might get a better chance at finding shoes your size if you live in western countries but for those who live in Asia, it is the worst. Absolutely nothing comes after a size 9...which was probably you're shoe size when you were like 11 years old or something. Nevertheless, shoes are gonna be hard to find either way. Oh, I forgot one last thing. People are also gonna judge you if ever they see you in heels because you're apparently TOO TALL.
4) Bullying. Or name calling. Whatever. People are ALWAYS going to make remarks about your height no matter what. They WILL point it out. "YOU'RE TALL." You think to yourself, "Oh, really? I didn't notice that until now that you pointed it out." A lot of people will make fun of your height, even. Because you're different. That's how society works. Deal with it.
ALSO PLEASE NOTE DOWN THE FOLLOWING:
1) Do NOT ask about their height. Or ask for body measurements. They WILL get pissed off. Even if they act cool about it. Some tall people are actually insecure about this. So DON'T. JUST. DON'T,
2) Do NOT ask to compare heights. These are people. Not a measuring stick.
3) Do NOT ask if they play basketball/volleyball/track. Most likely, they don't. Not every tall person is interested in sports.
^ If you avoid doing what was stated above, you'd be in the friend list of a tall person in no time.
SO THAT'S IT. I'm done with this post.
Wednesday, May 8, 2013
Summertime Sadness
Have you ever been stuck in a rut?
It's like everyday, everything is the same. You do the same things over and over without even realizing it. There's no thrill whatsoever. Nothing. It's too routinary.
It's frustrating, really.
You feel alone. Even though you're only one call away from meeting your friends. Even though you can just go straight out of the door and go on a completely spontaneous adventure. Or even if you can just chat with your peers online. Maybe a video call. Whatever.
But, no. You're just too used to repeating everything exactly as it was yesterday and probably still, tomorrow. You actually CHOOSE to be that way. Just because.
It is a constant battle with yourself. It feels depressing. Agonizing, even.
You're not exactly sad but you're not exactly happy either. You're confused. You're not sure what to do about it...or IF you're going to do something about it.
The worst part of it all is that even though you are having all these emotions, you act like you don't really care. You keep on telling yourself that "You're fine" when in reality, you're probably an inch away from having a mental breakdown.
That's the last thing you'd admit to. Because you just loathe self-pity. And you're a self-righteous twat.
So, tell me. Have you ever been in a rut? I definitely have.
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